| A Ride Into Oblivion
by Esposito |
November 4, 2002 |
The sound of a blaring horn rips me awake. My head is pounding and I seem paralyzed.
Im aware of a steady, throbbing pain behind my eyes. I cant move my
body, and my head seems detached from the rest of me. I turn my eyes towards the
window to look around and see what is happening, but I only see lights and the
seemingly indistinguishable forms of pedestrians on the sidewalks. Where am
I? The smell of stale cigarette smoke and car freshener, the feel of cheap upholstery
and movement cause a slight flashback. A cab, I think. It must be. I can see the
dim reflection of the driver in the windshield as the headlights of the oncoming
vehicles briefly light up the interior of the car. Had I been sleeping? I seem
to remember getting in to the car but its all so hazy and pale in my mind,
like a photograph taken at the turn of the century. Where are you
taking me? I croak at the driver. He looks at me in the rearview
mirror, a kind of glare that causes momentary panic. Those eyes. He stares at
me for a second and then returns to the road. Silence. Except for the dim and
tinny sound of the radio, all I can hear is the engine. Excuse
me! I barely manage to say. Why do I feel so bad? My head is swimming in
agony and I cant seem to remember anything past the last few minutes. Can
you please tell me where were going? Nothing. I look out the
window again. Things seem clearer now, but theres still a weird haze, almost
like theres a filmy substance covering my eyes. I see a woman with a badly
misshapen back struggling with something in her hands. Is it a child or an animal?
A knife is in her hands and shes slicing into the writhing creature. The
scene blurs past and I see a group of men exiting a restaurant arm in arm, drunk
and happy in the moment. I seem to remember eating at one of these places once,
but the memory refuses to solidify and dissipates like vapor in the air.
Korea. The word floats through my consciousness like a distant echo. I look out
the window once more and see the oddly written signs, and buildings piled together
like a Lego project gone awry. The flashback hits me all of sudden and
Im transported back in time. A moment, days, weeks, or months, Im
not sure. I remember exiting a plane, happy and excited to be here. Here? A woman
is smiling at me as she stamps my passport and hands it back. The memory is painful,
almost slow motion, and I realize that Im in Korea and it all begins to
click. A conversation from an eternity ago enters my thoughts and Im
taken to a scene of dirty flowers, brown grass and sunshine. There are exercise
chin-up bars glinting in the sunlight, but it all seems so surreal. A river and
swimming pools are beside me as I walk down a path through a park. A friend, I
cant remember who, is telling me something, though the words sound strange
and the memory is unclear. Did you hear? Some foreigners were
kidnapped or something the other day. He looks at me but I cant see
his face, only a mist where his face should be. Their bodies were found
this morning, badly mutilated and
Are you okay? Please
stop, I barely manage to spit out the words at the driver. I can manage
from here. The man screams at me in a barely intelligible tongue
and swerves suddenly to avoid a bus. Maybe he was screaming at the bus. Im
not sure. My body slumps sideways into the seat and I cant seem to sit back
up. I grope for the door but cant seem to move. Whats happened? Why
cant I move my arms? I suddenly realize that Im tied up, though
the suddenness of that realization makes me dizzy and ill. My hands and feet are
bound by rope. I begin to sweat and I can feel the drops sliding down my forehead,
stinging my eyes. My sweat rolls down my face and touches my lips. The salty taste
of my own sweat is like tasting reality. The sound of laughter drifts through
my mind. I hear laughter and screaming, the sound of children entering my classroom.
My classroom? I teach? It dawns on me that I dont know what I do, exactly
where I am, or what the hell is going on! Lights flash through the car
and I can see the reflection of buildings sliding past in the window. As the light
from a streetlamp floats up the seat and out of the car I notice a trail of blood
that seems to follow in a downward arc towards where I lay. My head is stuck to
the seat and I cant move anymore. A pool of coagulated blood has formed
on the seat and plastered my head to the vinyl. I pull my head upwards
and the sound of it coming unglued makes my stomach retch. I struggle and finally
manage to sit up, though the pain that tears through my skull causes me to black
out. I can hear sounds increasing and decreasing in volume. Echoes and fragments
of time that split through the moment like a flashback return me from the dead.
I can no longer speak. My eyes turn towards the world and I see a man with bandages
wrapped around his legs and head. He is lying on the sidewalk and staring at nothing
as people stream past him. His grotesquely mutilated hand is held out, begging
for change. Beside him is a woman fighting with her husband. He brutally slams
her against the wall, screaming at her and slapping her in the face. A police
car goes by in the opposite direction, its siren on but in no hurry to do anything.
Its blue and red lights pierce through my skull and hurt my eyes. I try to scream
something, anything, but all that emerges from my lips is a groan and some drool
that had been gathering in the corners of my mouth. Yeah, it happens
once in awhile. Some poor foreigner bastard is walking down the wrong street late
at night, and BANG! Sayonara, man! I can still hear the voice but it fades
with the laughter preceding it. You think youre getting into a cab,
or something, and next thing you know youre disemboweled, penniless, and
dying on the sidewalk. Help, I manage to spit out.
The driver turns those malevolent eyes to the mirror once again and
he starts to laugh. Its a bad kind of laugh that loosens my bowels and causes
my guts to cramp. I see the red glow of the cigarette lighter that briefly illuminates
the drivers face. Its a craggy face, with bags under the eyes and
lines that tell his age. That face seems familiar. Get in, I know
where you want to go. The cab driver nods his head and flashes a toothy
smile in my direction. I notice that someone else is already in the cab and look
back at the driver. Its okay. I take him same place. The memory
is receding, fading into a gray maelstrom of thought and cognition.
Why is my stomach in so much pain? I could only sense a weird numbness emanating
from my midsection a moment ago. Now it felt like a hot poker was twisting in
and out, in and out. Blackness washes over me and I pass out again. Where
am I? My eyes seem glued shut and my head is pounding. I feel a slight movement
underneath me, smell stale cigarettes and cheap
It all comes flooding painfully
back and I struggle to open my eyes. My head had slumped forward so that my chin
is resting against my chest. Slowly my eyes peel open and Im staring down
at my stomach. A groan escapes my lips and a scream, dry and hoarse comes out
of my mouth. My whole body is filled with an unspeakable feeling of despair and
overwhelming fear that consumes me. My guts are spilled into my lap
and the blood is everywhere. I hear laughter, strange and slightly mad,
coming from the driver. I glance up to see him looking at me once again through
the rearview mirror. Those eyes. Why the eyes? And then I remember all of it.
I nodded to the driver that I understood and got into the back seat. I stole
a glance at my traveling companion in the cab and noticed that one eye was gray,
while the other one was brown. I thought it strange because I had never seen a
blind eye before. He grinned at me and it seemed so unreal, so distinctly foul.
All of a sudden the man had a knife in his hands and he quickly lunged toward
the driver with a speed and savageness I wouldnt have thought possible in
a man of his age. The driver was dying in the front seat before he could scream,
the knife having pierced his neck and severed his vocal chords. The
man elbowed me across the face before I could so much as move and then I felt
it. A feeling of cold ice blasted through my guts. It both winded me and caused
an explosion of pain to rip through my body. I could smell the mans breath
on me, and hear him breathing hard with the exertion of driving that blade in
and out of me. He was staring at me, totally detached from reality. That was the
last thing I remembered: those creepy eyes. Im telling
you, man. You can never be too careful in this town. My buddy had this mischievous
grin on his face. If anyone, I mean anyone tried to fuck with me like that
Well, lets just say they wouldnt stand a chance.
He was laughing, and I still couldnt make out his face, and then I realized
it was the driver laughing at me again. The driver. The man who murdered me in
a strange land, far from home, for reasons I will never understand. And then me,
sitting in the back, dying slowly, thinking of waking up from this nightmare,
taking a shower and going to work. View
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